The next day I was sitting at my desk where I maintained a financial planning office. I couldn’t help but think about the previous night’s experience when I actually wrote some poetry. I couldn’t wait until I went home and sat at my computer. Evening came. Okay, I thought, let’s see what I can write. My mind was in lock down. No words came forward. Finally I gave up and assumed that last night’s experience was unexplainable and would never happen again. So, I returned to my meditation and settled into my soft chair. Thirty minutes into meditation the same thing happened again — more poetry about childhood sexual abuse.
In the days that followed it became clear that the key was to meditate and wait for something to happen. The meditation somehow eliminated the wall that had previously blocked my creativity. In time I could enter the place where poets dare to tread. My therapist suggested that I contact a writing teacher and see where my writing might lead. I took her suggestion and talked with a client of mine who happen to teach in the English Department at the local university. She worked with me for about 6 months and then suggested that I work with a teacher of creative nonfiction writing at the university who worked with me for three years. Upon her suggestion I completed my MFA in creative nonfiction at Goucher College in Baltimore, Maryland.
Here I am three books later, thinking about the wonderful journey that I have taken. My therapist and writing teachers changed my life. I can now enter that well of creativity, floating through a liquid-like gel which must be love. Not only does it happen when I write, the love comes forward anytime I open the door. What a life changer it has been, and is there for the taking. One only needs to trust, to feel, and ultimately to love.