This brings me to my latest experience. It happened this afternoon as I was mowing the grass. I had this conversation with God, or maybe an imaginary talk with God. I really don’t know, but it was satisfying. I must have said something like, “Hey God, things are not going well. I hurt, I take pills, and I sleep. Doesn’t say much for the “golden years.'”
“Maybe the answer is in front of your eyes,” he must have said. “You know how they said in your church that the streets of heaven are paved with gold. Maybe there’s another way of looking at this. Maybe heaven isn a continuous ‘buzz.’ Think about it. That’s not so bad. Maybe you can gain a temporary reprieve from your pain. Drink a bottle of wine and eat some “cheddar fish crackers.”
“I think that I understand,” I said. I opened a bottle of wine and poured myself a bowl of those “cheddar fish crackers” that my granddaughters like. Wine and “fish crackers” can be mighty fine. It was overcast tonight, nice cool breeze outside. I invited my wife and dog to join me outside. “Tonight,” I said, “I am going to get a nice buzz.” And oh Lordy, I have a nice one going on. My wife had one glass and several fish crackers. My dog, Bailey, had numerous fish crackers, and I had a bottle of wine.
So, here I am. The buzz is still real and fine. Had dinner, maybe one of the best I’ve ever had. My wife still loves me, even though I sometimes act like a fool. And Bailey, she always loves me. You know, dogs can sense the really good things of life — that’s me.
I don’t know how often I’m going to repeat this, but it was wonderful tonight. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow, the next night, and so on. Thursday I meet with my surgeon to discuss my latest MRI. To be cut open or not, that will be the question.
Now I arrive at the moment when I hit the “return” button on my computer. No more thought, no proof-reading. Shit in, shit out, that’s tonight’s offering. Tomorrow morning I won’t believe that I sent this out. But it is what it is.
3 thoughts on “God told me that I needed a “buzz.””
Good for you! Sounds like just what you needed! Best wishes 😉
I think sometimes our inner soul provides the best answers and solutions for the most annoying thoughts. This inner soul is the reflection and in fact the voice of God. I am happy that you derived happiness in the simplest ways. It feels good, God bless everyone 🙂
I’m glad you got some relief, and I got a good giggle! 🙂